Childish

I was looking for a song entitled “rainbow” that I saw in Ate S’ meme. I can’t find it in youtube. I think she’s talking about South Border’s rainbow, but what I saw was “somewhere over the rainbow.” I liked that song, so I clicked the vid. But it wasn’t the version I heard before. Finally found it–Jason Castro’s version. (Did he win in AI? Did he? I dunno.. I wish he did.) I absolutely love the song. Now I keep repeating it over and over.

It reminds me of 50 First Dates, Drew and Adam’s film, because it sounds Hawaiian. And it’s kind of dreamy…

And it reminds me of Peter Pan. Not the story per se, but the movie. The one where the lead was Jeremy Sumpter (hey, I still remember the name!), he’s not really well-known, but I liked him in that movie. I’ve watched the other (animated) versions of the story, but Sumpter’s version struck something in me. It’s just.. The movie showed a part of Peter and Wendy’s story that wasn’t really shown in the other versions: the love story that never happened… and will never happen.

I was 13 when I watched the movie, and I cried at the end. Not because of the story, but because of something that wasn’t technically in the story. There you have a love so young, so raw, and it can never happen. :sniff:

Yes. Call me mushy. I may also be deranged, getting so worked up over a silly story, but you can’t call me that (gusto mo ng gyera?!).

And I can relate to Peter Pan. But unlike him, I do want to grow up (even though I know it can be hard); I just don’t want to grow old. I want to keep my young self, I want to stay active, able. I shudder to think of the far future when I won’t be able to have the strength to walk and run, or the senses to read or write. It’s not that I want to stay young forever… That’s impossible. So I just wish that… I can die before I lose those physical capabilities. Maybe when I’m forty? Or fifty?

Peter Pan liked Wendy, an addition to their group. But when she wanted to leave, he… withdrew from them and kept to himself. He didn’t like it, but he consented to it. That’s just like me. I want things to stay the same. I have no problem adjusting to things, but that doesn’t mean I like it. I think it’s okay if the change is just addition; I find it sad (not exactly hard) to deal with subtractions. I hate losing things, or people. I tend to convince myself that I don’t want or need something or someone before I lose them—just so it wouldn’t be so hard to let go. But I hold on as long as I can to things that I know I can never ever bear to lose.

I wish Wendy was able to make Peter change his mind and come with her…