Taboo? Not really.
February 27, 2009
I wonder how much I weigh now. It’s been 3 months since I had a check-up for my cough and allergies and they had to check my weight among other things for their records. My mass was 103lbs. Just within the ideal weight—as in aesthetically and not just medically ideal—for my height.
I think I was heaviest last year, when I was in the States and I had nothing to do but eat lots of fatty foods—chocolates, pizza, hamburgers, icecream, candies, etc.—and sleep. If I remember right, I was 112lbs then. Sheesh.
Now I wonder how much I weigh. I still eat whatever I want whenever I want. But I don’t really get to eat proper meals on time, since I get so busy that I have no time, or I get so depressed that I have no appetite. Sometimes I just don’t have anyone to eat with. I’m so moody that I get those lonely and miserable moods as well.
My plans have changed drastically; I have to leave earlier. Since I’ll be boarding a plane and they have fines for “overweight” baggages, I’ll need a weighing scale to weigh my suitcase. I’m looking forward to buying a weighing scale, actually. I need to know my weight so that I can watch it. Haha. Sounds anorexic/bulimic? No, not really. I’m not exactly skinny enough to be labeled anorexic or bulimic, and i’m too sensible to have a psychological disorder that roots from physical looks.
Hey, u know what you’d need? A purpose. If you would be very focused on that purpose, you will forget the black thoughts and you will be happy. Also, don’t think too much at lives existential questions. Why do u think that every geniuses are miserable..? ;)
Good luck
*resisting urge to correct the…*
i do have a purpose, it’s just that it isn’t as clear and straightforward as it should be. But that’s okay since I’m still young. I’ll definitely shape up in no time. And who said I’m not happy? I am, just not always (which is normal). Thanks for trying to help. :)
alam mo ako ganyan din. check ko BMI ko, sabi normal weight daw ako pero kapag nakikita kong umaalon ang bilbil ko, e parang hindi normal yun di ba? hehe- so ang ginawa ko? partner kami ni kengkoy, jogging kami. tapos meron din akong date with my friends, two times a week, nordic walking naman kami. kapag may kasama ka, mas madaling gawin :) good luck
kaya nga ang sinusunod ko yung sa table ng tita ko, yung nakaindicate dun, yung ideal weight talaga, hindi lang yung nakadepend sa BMI. ayoko nga magkabilbil! ahaha.. sabi ng housemates ko mag-hiphop abs daw kami dito sa bahay, pero sa kabusy-han, di rin natutuloy.
a good diet, is a person who.. eats right. Not because he/she wants to become sexy or macho.. ayan, kelangan mo ng weighing scale..goodluck! :)
ha? you mean dietist—one skilled in dietetics, the science concerned with the nutritional planning and preparation of foods (at niresearch ko pa ha!). i know that, it’s just that i want to maintain my ideal weight, and doing it keeps me happy. i’m not, in any way, denying myself of anything. :)
oo nga, kailangan ko. pero di naman ako mataba ah…
good luck na lang sa pagbili.
hayy. parang yoko na. di naman talaga kailangan dahil wala naman akong masyadong dadalhin eh. bahala na kapag tinamaan ng buying impulse
i’m too sensible to have a psychological disorder that roots from physical looks.<—- believe me when i say, sensible people are more prone to have psychological disorder… nyahaha…
pero okay lang yan… normal yan, until people do stupid things.. cheers;p-glesy the great
shrug. i think everyone has a psychological disorder—it’s just a matter of determining which disorder it is. i said i’m too sensible to have a psychological disorder that roots from physical looks. i didn’t intend to say that i’m too sensible to have any psych disorder.