Taboo? Not really.

February 27, 2009

I wonder how much I weigh now. It’s been 3 months since I had a check-up for my cough and allergies and they had to check my weight among other things for their records. My mass was 103lbs. Just within the ideal weight—as in aesthetically and not just medically ideal—for my height.

I think I was heaviest last year, when I was in the States and I had nothing to do but eat lots of fatty foods—chocolates, pizza, hamburgers, icecream, candies, etc.—and sleep. [read on…]

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Impasse

February 23, 2009

There are, indeed, worse things that death.

I wish I’m dead. I wish I can die right now.

If only it was that easy.

I’m hanging, again. I don’t know what my future holds. I thought my summer, at least, is clear when I went to the pre-advising for this summer and the first semester a couple of weeks ago. Then my dad dropped a bomb. Knowing it’s not his fault makes things harder since I can’t put the blame on anyone, not even on myself.

I wish I can die right now. And all these will end.

9 Facts, 1 BS

February 9, 2009

1. Kumakain ako ng choco flakes + milk ngayon at yun pa lang ang laman ng sikmura ko for the last 20 hours. Teka, di ba yun pwede? Sige.. uh.. Hindi ako pihikan sa pagkain, moody ako. Halimbawa, gusto ko naman ang pizza. Pero may mga oras na kahit matagal ko nang hindi nakakain ang pizza, ayoko pa ring kainin. Pana-panahon din lang ang pagkain ko ng gulay.

2. I love myself more than anyone else! O, di ba. Love your own self talaga. To the point na narcissistic na. Wala akong pakialam kung hindi ako mahal ng iba, basta nagagawa at nakukuha ko ang gusto ko at mahal ko ang sarili ko. [read on…]

Went to Trinoma with R today, as usual. “Bakit kapag Friday, kailangan nating gumastos ng bongga, ‘no?” Why, indeed.

We ate first, then went to Mango. Saw this amazing yellow flats with black embellishments. Too cute on my feet—if you’re standing in front of me. I didn’t buy it because the heel looks stupid. That’s when I had this urge to buy a new pair of flats. We went to F&H, saw the blue plaid blouse I’ve been eying, but R told me she saw a cuter top in Penshoppe. Tried on a simple dress in F&H, but it looked too homely. I mean, I already look plain, so if I wear plain clothes, that’ll make me look over-the-top plain (self-esteem, where art thou?). And besides, the price isn’t as plain as the dress. [read on…]