Succumbing to gloom

November 25, 2011

FB stat: Random epiphany: I see all these artworks and compositions and I think, these people are so talented. I can never draw or take a photo or write like they do. :( #midlifecrisis

Then a good friend messaged me:

B: hey
Me: hey
B: how art thou?:)
Me: artless
B: don’t fret about such things. :) you’re special.

Aww. Really. But it didn’t take the gloom away. If writing can move mountains, then why can’t I move a single person?

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Skip a beat

October 15, 2010

My heart (wait, I still have one?) always skips a beat whenever someone goes online.

I’ve been using a private ym account for months–or was it years?– to talk to the only person added in that account. I’m not yet used to using my acad account for ym, although I’ve been using it lately for online group meetings for school and conversations with my Dad.

I guess I’ve been used to always having to wait for him to go online. I was used to being logged on for hours on end. I’m used to feeling a jolt when he goes online because I was waiting for that sound, or the message at the lower right corner of the screen, that sometimes doesn’t come.

I’m not used to seeing other people go online. I still feel my heart skip a beat. I still feel disappointed that it’s not him, although I shouldn’t really expect him to show. I’m not used to not waiting for him.

But one day, I will be.

Binary

October 10, 2010

I think of 101010 and all I can think of is binary. I’ve forgotten how that works, though. Oh well, Calculus.

Nirereplyan ko siya kasi nakikita ko yung sarili ko sa kanya. At ayokong maramdaman niya ang nararamdaman ko kapag ako yung nagtetext kay Saliente… I pity him like I pity myself.

Is that wrong? Pinapaasa ko lang ba siya? I’m trying not to hurt him, but maybe by doing this I’ll just hurt him more in the end.

Leche kasi, Gino N. Chang, binigay mo pa ang number ko!

In binary mathematics, all you have is 0 and 1.

Twists and turns

October 2, 2010

I was in a meeting earlier tonight when he texted.

Mang Inasal mode.hahaha.

wahh. kagutom.

Haha.. Kain!

in a bit. nasa mtg pa ako para sa…

Ahhm.ok

Pangtanggal lang ng stress. Madami ko problema. Kesa uminom. Mas sulit ‘to. Hehe

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